Monthly Archives: September 2014

memory, body, cancer

chemo gives you brain damage, by all accounts. i am bipolar. to be specific, i suffer from bipolar 1, ultra rapid cycling, with psychotic tendencies.  rapid cycling, and bipolar in general, causes brain damage, and often effects memory in particular. … Continue reading

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Variation is the reality: and i’m really scared of blood clots

firstly: those of you who follow along at home (ie, FB and Twitter) will know of my overarching terror of blood clots that i have been expressing in a public forum for the last few days.  imagine those times where … Continue reading

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difficult rationalising days

i’m not sure why, but the last few days have hit me really hard.  maybe just the reality of what i am facing feels more real, or that i feel isolated, or that i am just really really frightened.   … Continue reading

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scan results are in, and some thoughts about writing about cancer

and from what my oncologist says, everything is going as well as possible for my treatment.  tumour markers dropping, liver function improving rapidly, and evidence that the tumours are breaking down in my liver.  no mention of the bowel – … Continue reading

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