Monthly Archives: June 2014

chemo school and delusions

Posted on June 30, 2014 by elizabeth

warning: this will contain more information than usual about my bipolar. some people are not going to read this – so this won’t be the post for you. i’ve talked briefly in the past how my bipolar may, or may … Continue reading →

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some advice about how to talk to people with cancer about cancer

Posted on June 28, 2014 by elizabeth

NOTE! this is general advice that i’ve though i should collate in one space, as a few people have mentioned that they’d gotten good ideas out of other blog posts about talking about cancer. a lot of this is about … Continue reading →

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Portacath! sleepytimes! overnight in hospital! hospital food!

Posted on June 27, 2014 by elizabeth

these things are probably not that exciting. WARNING: discussion of surgery, and surgical wounds, and hospitals, and hospital food.   if these are gross out/triggers for you, don’t read on. i have a strange love of surgical stuff when i’m … Continue reading →

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i fell asleep in an MRI. and rectal cancer is dumb

Posted on June 25, 2014 by elizabeth

i still feel a bit hazy from it. MRIs are my least favourites, mostly because they take ages, and make me feel really really OFF after. dizzy and confused and disoriented with screeching weird headaches. this one was an hour … Continue reading →

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a day (resembling) rest, and life goes on, heartaches and all

Posted on June 23, 2014 by elizabeth

Today has been a thankfully appointment free day – other than my psychologist tonight, which is never a big deal. i have been doing mental health therapy for so long that i’ve come to find it soothing, rather than anxiety … Continue reading →

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intense shifting terrifying emotions

Posted on June 22, 2014 by elizabeth

thursday was horrific. actually, totally horrific. i had my oncologist appointment. i actually really liked my oncologist. he seems really lovely, really honest and straight shooting, and that’s what you need. but oncology is frightening, especially with my cancer terror. … Continue reading →

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irritated, and scared of PET scan, and probably picking fights

Posted on June 18, 2014 by elizabeth

i have a really bad habit that i have tried to reform for years. my name is elizabeth, and i like starting fights on the internet. don’t get me wrong, i’m not a troll. but people say dumb stuff. people … Continue reading →

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looks like OK cancer still might not be OK.

Posted on June 17, 2014 by elizabeth

as everyone says, this whole thing is up and down and up and down again. we saw the liver surgeon today.  the problem with the tumours there are that they are too big. way too big. they are completely inoperable … Continue reading →

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short and sweet! cancer is still kinda ok cancer.

Posted on June 16, 2014 by elizabeth

a brief entry today – my GI doctor told me my treatment outline – chemotherapy, followed by surgery if the chemo is successful in shrinking all of the tumours. it appears that my body has been stopping the progression of … Continue reading →

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calm before a storm: feelings and stuff.

Posted on June 15, 2014 by elizabeth

i’ve noticed a strange thing that happens. i am told news.  i have a day or so of terror and heartbreak, and then a few days of adaption. then comes the anxiety – when i start realising that though i … Continue reading →

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